Welcome back to my blog!
It’s been a while since I’ve been here for a number of reasons. However right now I’m going to share some part of all of that with you because I know I am not the only person that has instances like this in personal life and in business.
Earlier in 2017 I completely stopped work!! Yes! I woke up one morning and did not open my laptop; instead I asked myself what I was doing with my life.
Since that time I have been working on myself on a much deeper level than I had ever imagined I could.
Personal development takes commitment and a lot of work. Sometimes, even though you want to do it, it can be hard work. God it is hard!! That is, if you are being true to yourself on a deep level you may not have previously experienced.
Hard is a word I took out of my language some time ago, for fear of negative self talk that plays havoc with my subconscious, and now the word hard is back in my vocabulary. Personal development is hard work and right at this time I was absolutely prepared to do the hard work.
So the year unfolded and morphed into something I had never imagined. Because I had stopped working, I had time to do what ever I wanted to do.
It was not as simple as stopping and everything changed for the better, it was scary, it took time, not having an income was overwhelming at times, however, I chose to relax and let my life flow in whatever direction it took.
For eight years I had been working in and on my business and coming to the realisation I had had a complete breakdown was somewhat of a shock, so I came to terms with that by giving myself time.
I was on unfamiliar ground.
I struggled through each day.
The urge to sleep took over and sleeping was often the way I spent my days. I drove to the country and took photos. I spent time by the sea. I walked along beaches, I spent time with close friends who understood me and I trusted I was in the right place for what I needed in my life at that point in time.
I began painting even though this was not something I had done, except for one painting years ago. I spent time with dogs, and that experience of accepting unconditional love was beautiful on a level I could have not ever imagined. I kept trusting and surrounding myself with people who loved me even though they may not have understood what I was experiencing, supported me and backed me for as long as it took.
At some stage through all of this I realised I was much more creative than I had ever given myself credit for. Well hello!! Apparently it was very obvious to those around me!!
Because I no longer had the pressure of working on my business I was free to explore more of the things I loved.
OMGolly, it hit me.
All the time I have been mentoring my people about doing more of what they love, and being themselves, was coming home to me!! Had I been true to myself during all these years in business? It was a deep question that I knew would take time and energy to answer authentically. (there is that word that you may think is overused until you immerse yourself in finding the authentic you)
The experience of personal development has been transformational. Daily I remind myself how far I have come in six months, or one month, or one week or one day. I suggest no matter what you are working through, or if you are learning and growing, you continually remind yourself how far you have come in a particular time. And then go on reminding yourself over and over again until you get it. It’s a great habit because it’s a very positive reminder of what you have achieved and will encourage you to keep going, knowing all the pain and energy is worth it. And, yes at times it was painful. At times I did not know if I would be able to work again. At times I was not sure where I would end up. One thing I did know and that was that I wanted to continue inspiring others to live life to the fullest each and every day, no matter what is holding them back at the time.
Life is short and it is wonderful to give more as that feeling of giving and sharing will give you a deep level of happiness.
Here is a short list of things I have learnt in the past few months. (I say short because I could go on forever!!)
- Let go
- Trust and trust and trust you are in the right place
- Get help, the right help
- Surround yourself with people who care about you and love you
- Be aware of what your body is telling you
- Listen to your heart
- Slow down
- Sleep well
- Drink more water
- Let go of the people in your life who are not there for you
- Write a Bucket List and start doing more of what you love
- Spend time with people you love and doing the things you love
There is so much more to share although that is it for now.
I’m back planning the year ahead and looking forward to sharing more with you again soon.
What I have learnt in this past few months will come through in my writing, blogs, social media posts, photos, paintings, workshops and retreats.
Please leave your thoughts below or contact me if you would like to chat further about what I have written or you would like to work with me on some of the things which are holding you back right now.
Until next time,